What am I feeling, A poem
Updated: May 19, 2020
What am I feeling ?
To be honest , nothing
I feel nothing
I feel nothing of pain
I feel nothing of life
I feel nothing of love
When I am in pain , I feel to write
And I haven’t been in the space to write
I feel for me to write, I need to be in pain because it is more conforming than love. Well that’s been the epitome of my life.
I have risen more in life through pain than through love since the womb.
Unlearning to learn how to feel good is a process.
Unlearning to learn how to feel love is a process
Unlearning to learn how to feel life is a journey
Learning how to be patient with my process is a painful and numb feeling.
So to say how I am feeling ?
I really feel numb because I have been accustomed to feeling pain and then numb and then pain.